A confession
On an intellectual, rational level I know that we identify as Dominant and slave because that's just our personal preferences, and it has nothing to do with gender. I don't believe in male supremacy. I believe men and women are equal and it is much more satisfying to have chosen this type of relationship than to have been forced into it by stereotyping. I believe that women can Dommes, and it doesn't make them any less female. I believe that men can be slaves and it doesn't make them any less male. I certainly don't believe that male submissives are weak and pathetic.
I think it is awful that in the past (and in many places in the world right now) women became their husband's property on the point of marriage. I have strong reservations about our culture in which the woman still by-and-large takes the husband's name and is given away by her father - pretty much without questioning what this tradition was built upon.
I don't understand why we equate strength as a person with brawn and maleness; as a small woman I deserve the same respect Sir does from the outside world. I am a strong person and my size should not take away from that.
However. While I ultimately and intellectually want to totally get rid of gender (that being the cultural attachments to one's biological sex), I also can't pretend that I am emotionally immune to gender stereotyping.
One of the reasons why I want to get married is because it turns me on to think about being *officially* my husband's property. I want to be his little slut wife; I want to serve him as a good wife should serve her husband. (Most of these fantasies obviously revolve around sexual acts. The idea of doing all the housework while he relaxes with a beer does not turn me on).
I want to worship my husband as the embodiment of manliness; him taking charge of me and my life represents the natural order of things. I love the contrast between how tall, broad and strong he is compared to me. I am small and fragile and I need him to take care of me and use me how he sees fit.
I want everyone to know that Sir possesses me and that he has chosen to take care of me above all others. I want to financially commit to Sir; I want it to be hard for me to leave. I want us to be joined as one. I want everyone to know that I worship and adore my husband.
A lot of the things I mention above we will be doing as husband and wife - but we had already achieved them as Master and slave. And as I've said before, the label of husband and wife should not be synonymous with Master and slave...but nonetheless I can't wait to live with Sir and be trained to be his perfect little slut wife.
Posted in: on Thursday, 16 February 2012 at at 09:53
